Halifax’s Special Costello just released a 2-track album of glammy devotional synth pop that immediately struck a chord with me. Jeremy Costello has released quite a few singles worth savouring (including a few on Craft Singles) but I was immediately charmed by this one because of its sensitive subject matter.
As someone who was diagnosed with anxiety (& bonus issues) when I was a pretty young kid, I respect and support Jeremy 100% for releasing these tracks to help self-heal and recover from this bad patch. Mental illness is like a really terrible compound fracture. After you break your bones into a million different places, you can always tell when it’s going to rain and you ache all over again when it does.
The lyrics Losing Ground are particularly poignant and I would recommend reading them here if you feel like passing along some psychic love to another human being.
“This is a document of my struggle with depression. In an attempt to come to terms with this invisible handicap I’ve taken to openly talking about it to make sure people know that it’s a part of my life. It’s hard to understand for people without it, and there’s nothing to be done even if it’s understood. Therefore depressives live in a constant internal struggle, trying to keep ahead of their limited motivation. This song comes from a defeated moment, where everything seems unattainable, or too difficult to achieve. For me these moments are rare and therefore I am lucky. I want to live my life, handicap or not. My art is a way I can deal with depression productively. Dig it or don’t, I’ve gotten what I want out of it already.”
To anyone who feels like they need extra love, guidance, a listening ear, or help in finding out where to go – Toronto Crisis Help Line. You are not alone, friend.